Sometimes, when I sit with a notebook, I pretend there is no one. No one who will read it. No one who will ever even know I wrote it. This way, I can enjoy the moment for what it is. I am a writer and I enjoy writing.
No frills. No pretentious thoughts of where the creation can go and the over-arching story the character will eventually fit into. For that moment, I seek only the thrill of being alive and free.
True freedom needs no audience. This is a truth we, not just the young, but all people have forgotten. More and more, every detail seems to deserve a place on a public timeline somewhere. Social media is changing the way we create. And I don’t mean for the worse or that civilization is on the decline.
I’m only saying, it’s nice to write and create. No client needed, no deadline looming, nothing pushed onto the back burner to make room for it, it’s just life being lived as one would live it without instigation or worry.
A Life lived Free.
A new stories written only because I had the time to stretch my mind and allow it to be itself. A relaxed look into the faces and at the voices of the characters who have lived in my head since before I can remember. All those people that have shaped me. everytime I allowed one to tell me a story, I learned something I never knew before, I realized there was a direction or a perception I had yet to explore.
Who are these voices, exactly? I’ve taken their advice, enjoyed their exultation, and heeded their warnings for decades. I learned from them how to quiet my inner voice, to just listen and allow them to hold the pen. For the first time, I was the one listening, I was the one being entertained.
Freedom needs no audience because perhaps we are the audience of our own freedom. We enjoy watching ourselves enjoy the benefits of an understood life. I can take my rightful place and simply watch the show unfold.